So, post numero dos. Today's installment centers around an episode of Will and Grace. You'll find that a lot of my gay moments come from this show. I guess I feel like I can be myself while I'm watching it. We'll explore that more later on, trust me. But now for the real reason we're here.
On this episode, Will's ex shows up, Will thinks he's getting some signals from him, and confronts him about it. SPOILER ALERT, it's all in Will's head. Michael is seeing someone who, by the way, is fucking gorgeous. He then goes running to Grace and tells her about it. Come to find out, she had known about it the whole time. And Michael had started seeing this guy just 2 months after he and Will broke up.
How do I find a gay moment in this? Well, that requires me to introduce the first of many major figures in my life. Alexis, while being many things, is a musician. She is hella talented, she's crazy as fuck, weird, rambling, smart, funny, clumsy, and she's my soulmate. I realized a few months ago that she probably knows more about me than a lot of people do. I don't tell my full life story to anyone, but she probably has the most pieces. And because of that, trust her implicitly.
Now to tie this into the blog. Character number 2 in my life is someone that we will name Justin. No, his name isn't actually Justin, though a few people may get the joke of why I'm calling him that. I fell head over heels for Justin. It's as simple as that, but its also far more complicated. Justin liked me as a friend but nothing more. Shit happened and I wound up getting hurt because of it. But I won't ramble on that. You'll hear more about it later, I can guarantee.
Anyway, in this episode, I guess I really identified with Will because a couple of months ago I found out that Justin had been sort of seeing another guy, just a few weeks after we had a huge falling out. And the guy he was sort of seeing was everything that I had thought Justin didn't like. And when I told Alexis about it, she told me she had already known, but didn't know how to tell me.
At first I was hurt and pissed. But I came to realize that there really was no way for her to tell me without me getting hurt and even more pissed off. How do you tell one of your best friends that the man he loves is becoming involved with someone else that personifies everything you're not? The ironic part? This other man is one of Alexis' really good friends. This is my life. Didn't you know?
So is this a gay moment in my life? After writing this, I'm torn on whether it is or not. I dare you to find someone that wouldn't be hurt with this situation. But in that same vein, I do believe that my emotions got the best of me in my outward reaction to the situation. Does portraying emotion make me gay? No it doesn't, but I don't know many straight guys that are as emotional as I am. Hence my hesitance to call this a gay or not-gay moment.
Well that was a trip, wasn't it? Yeah. It's only my second post, so forgive me if I'm rambling. But I needed to get that out there. I was just so surprised by how similar my life is to this show. You'll hear more about it later, trust me. This show is like Alexis and I wrapped into a neat, re-watchable, plastic package. Ugh.
And Justin, if you're reading this? I'm sorry that I've been a dick lately. I won't lie to you and say I'm over you. I would like nothing more at this moment than to drive to your house and light your car on fire while belting "Bust Your Windows" (the Glee version of course, duh). But I can't and will not do that. I may hate you right now, but you're living your life and that's all that matters. Just know that I miss you and I want to look back on this someday with you and laugh at how stupid we were. For now though, I'll fall asleep dreaming of me singing that to you with Alexis, Katie M and J-Hop in the background, dancing with their microphones, looking fierce as fuck.
Yeah.
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